Empress Justine

I’ve gone for the full-body package with Milan Laser Hair Removal. As a veteran (technically), I received a sizable discount. They… know I’m trans and that I’m using this as a method to transition, which is… very blushy…

Now I have to take sun exposure into consideration, since the laser hair removal system attacks pigmentation. I need to be as close to my natural skin tone as possible. An area of the body needs to be free from direct sun exposure for about 4 weeks to be a viable location for laser hair removal, or else the laser hair removal process will burn the skin. 30 minutes of total direct sun exposure counts as sun exposure. I need to make some life adjustments.

As for gaming, I haven’t had in-depth or traditional tastes in videogames. I’ve gravitated to a lot of weird gaming options and indie games. My itch.io account is loaded examples of this. Here’s a recent list of my purchased games and bundles:

I had the trans realization back in February or March 2025. So my previous tastes are honestly… kinda funny and telling. I thought I was an ABDL agender aromantic asexual that liked to dress fem in diapers as a kink. I had no idea I was just expressing parts of a much larger whole. The entire time I was actually a suppressed transfem, who is closer to demisexual… and gets blushy attracted to femininity… so also super gay… who was actually incontinent since childhood for both urinary incontinence and fecal incontinence. The incontinence has probably been a lifelong condition.

I developed a lot of routines with gaming, which fits the probable neurodivergence. I’d play Anodyne on a regular basis, by rushing through it to beat it in under 2.5 hours. On a daily basis, I used to play Shrubnaut, which is a small metroidvania. I’d play it’s spiritual successor, WitchWay, a bit less often, because it’s a longer game. I’d also play Attainment because it’s a small game. I played multiple runs of Celeste across multiple laptops simultaneously.

Military service disrupted all of this. If I had gotten commissioned instead of enlisting, which was the entire goal, the disruptions would have possibly been far less. The private housing would have made it easier to do things like maintain my certifications, at least, or exercise privately while maintaining my gaming habits.

I have managed to beat Obduction in around 50 minutes, as per this screenshot:

The second to last save file is actually my first run of the game. I was just using it as a way to explore the gaming world, to avoid adding time to my second run of the game, which is the ~115 minute run. My third run is the ~51 minute run, which actually fits speed run records, as per this screenshot:

My latest run, the ~152 minute run, was an effort to play through the game as though I were doing a Let’s Play, since I planned on doing a Let’s Play of the game. I actually checked all of the lore and I didn’t do things early on that I knew were going to speed up my run of the game. I actually figured out how to handle the base 4 conversation of base 10 numbers in my head, and how to use the Villein digit system. I can actually understand the digits in base 2 (binary) and base 16 (hexadecimal), so this wasn’t too difficult. Base 4 is close to both binary and hexadecimal.

I plan on trying to livestream or record my playthroughs of games, possibly with commentary. It’ll feel like I’m establishing a record of my gaming behavior, and sharing something with an audience. I’ve had plans to do this sort of thing for a while, I just never got around to it. It’s weird, because I’ve pulled off getting all of the achievements in multiple games, including Axiom Verge, Yuppie Psycho, and The Talos Principle. I’ve had so many things to share.

Anyway, it looks my Abena L4 has gotten all poopy while making this post. Gotta do a changie before my 3:30pm shift begins.

It’s weird to think that I went from someone that almost unintentionally embodied femininity as a sort of femboy that underestimated how fem she was by fixating on things like body hair to the present. Here’s a sample of my old unintentional embodiment of femininity:

I’ve been fem, nerdy, and incontinent for ages. Better to realize it all late than never.